deviantsaster

Has your heart ever just randomly shattered? For no real reason? Just attending your daily business content with your life then you feel a break in the left side of your chest the shatter as the space where your heart occupies becomes empty? When the past finds you and bites? When every "Im fine" "I understand" "I accept it" "I deserve it" catches up and one by one every lie 'accepting' statement every justification shows its true form Every "I understand" becomes a "Im not worth enough" Every "I accept" becomes a "Why did this have to happen to me?" Every "I deserve it" becomes a "I didn't mean to" and every regret every sorrow every self

This is not the place I've known, listen to the dial tone. The sky has gone askance, none of the stars are home. The sky is sealed, closed and shut and all the sounds are bottled up. Nothing's opened, closed and gone. Threads are unwinding in throbbing song. This is not home, the mirror's all wrong. The sounds are stilted, voices dragged along. And I stand alone. This is not the place I've known.